Friday, May 25, 2018

Women in Ireland this day of all days

Today, 25.5.2018 Irish voters will put a cross beside YES or NO to allow women the agency and power to decide herself, over what happens to her body, her womb, her life. I know what I'm voting.

But I wonder do we closely look at 'power & control' in our lives and see who has power & control over us? 

We women need at ask that question. and we need to vote everyday to have our own power & control over our lives.

Here are some challenging questions.

Do I have full power & control in my own life as a woman?  Yes    No

Do I have full power & control in my own life as a disabled woman?
                                                                                                  Yes    No
Do I have full power & control in my own life as an older woman?
                                                                                                  Yes    No
Do I have full power & control in my own life as an ill woman?
                                                                                                  Yes    No
Do I have full power & control in my own life as an ethnic minority  woman?
                                                                                                  Yes    No
Do I have full power & control in my own life as a Lesbian, transgender woman?
                                                                                                  Yes    No

Do I allow others make decisions for me?                                Yes   No

Do I take responsibility to ensure my own power & control    Yes   No

Do I feel powerless to own my own power and control            Yes  No

Am I forced, coerced, made, to do what someone else directs  Yes  No

Has someone used violence to subdue your power and control Yes  No

Has any medical doctor reduced, coerced, forced you to relinquish your medical understanding, knowledge of your own disability or illness

                                                                                                       Yes  No

Has any HSE official taken away your power and control in how you want your life to be supported as a sick, disabled, older woman           Yes   No

Has any family member taken away your power and control simply because you are ill, disabled, elderly                                                           Yes   No

Do men take away my power and control                                    Yes   No

Do women take away my power and control                                Yes  No

Do churches/religions/organisations take away my power and control 

                                                                                                        Yes  No

I'm sure I could go on. Perhaps you can add more challenging questions. I am hoping women who read this are going to be able to say "I am a powerful, in control of my own life woman"

We, as women, need to own power and control,

we need to take back  power and control. 

however a warning. if in a violent relationship - seek advice and support - you cannot do it alone.

Some will not want you to have Power and Control and will seek to harm you. this includes, partners who are violent, HSE officials, doctors, family members others!

Reclaim yourself - if necessary with help and support.
 Its worth it.
 
 


Monday, May 7, 2018

Friendship & Death : Think About It

When a friend of 48 years dies, you think. You remember...you mourn deeply...

Rachel, my dear friend, like a sister - but infinitely more than 'sister' has 'left' me - gone, departed, never to be seen, spoken to, sit with, laugh with, talk with again.

Liz-Anne, Rachel, me & Stuart on my 37th Birthday
My first 'Adult' party - my only one too!
I wasn't a good 'socialiser'.
This was nerve-wracking for me
 
 

Her impact on my life spanned from age 18 - age 65. That's many years.

SHE saw me though my years of young adult chaos. quietly supporting, quietly encouraging, quietly 'doing' the things needing doing. No fuss, no bother, no anxiety - just instinctively 'there' for me.

My first adult years were, frankly, horrendous. Not to be remembered except for those wonderful people I met & my tenacity to overcome. Yes, I recognise & remember that.

SHE visited me in the hospitals I landed up in. Bringing support, clean clothes, news, friendship

SHE had me stay in her house, fed me, cooked bread, cakes, chatted & walked in Vicky Park, Hackney, London with me.

SHE introduced me to what Christianity really meant. A 'protestant' teaches a Catholic.


Rachel & Sue: Lake Windermere.
I was steering
We had such fun
 
 

SHE supported my CSSA & MACSAS work, took an interest, cut out articles from the Church Times that she thought I'd 'miss', as I don't get the Church Times

SHE came to my final 'graduation' , sitting with my twin, who flew in from Ireland., as I walked up to get my qualification as a GOS Nurse - albeit it the Green Uniform, instead of pink. She KNEW how I struggled to get to this point.

SHE helped me move into a new flat.

SHE cooked my 37th birthday cake as I had my FIRST Birthday party ever - and was very nervous.

 
Early days
Great Ormond Street Student Nurse
Then Staff Nurse
Then district nurse in Hackney where she rode a bike visiting patients
 


SHE cooked a cake for my PhD graduation. Then came and celebrated with me. On her dying days she opened her weak, weary eyes, looked at the Nurse as I sat beside her,  and said "she has a PhD" . Said in pride and love. She gifted me even to the end. And she was part of my 'support team'. I thanked her. I hoped she felt my love and gratitude. I hope she did...

SHE visited Ann & I three years ago in the neurological hospital in Queens Sq, London and again, washed the dirty clothes and kept us in clean clothes.

SHE got her son Tim to look after my puppy - Saffi when I needed help.

SHE showed me around St Paul's Cathedral where she volunteered as seamstress on vestments and altar cloths.

SHE showed me her work training to teach English as a second language to refugees who were learning English

SHE and I had a memorable holiday together in the Lake District. We rowed boats, pulled bulrushes in the rain, walked the fells.

SHE & I had wonderful , relaxing times around her kitchen table.

SHE - was wonderful.

SHE was a true FRIEND. She made no demands, she asked for nothing, she was gentle, kind , quiet and a very GOOD person.

 
My Dear Friend Rachel
I am so, so, in despair & grief.


Yet Rachel's death has me thinking...your life may end any day. DO what you want to do, need to do, should do...NOW

Waste no time

Be strategic, deliberate...plan how each 'wish' will be achieved and get it done.

I ask Rachel to be beside me, to give me the strength to continue on , to do what I really want to do. I'll do it for YOU Rachel. I'll do it for YOU , my friend.

Then I will join you Rachel.

One day.